I am okay.....

Snowed in! Yep, that's us here in the Midwest. Thankfully, I work for the education system...so when the kids are out...we're out! I figure this is forced time for me to update my blog.

Since my last posting, I have managed to keep my optimism level up. Which is unheard of for myself. The last Wednesday in January, I started a women's bible study group after months of invitations. It was only the meet and greet night, and of course with weather conditions it is cancelled for this evening, but it was a fantastic opportunity to meet other young ladies. I was so nervous. I'm such a people person; however, if I am not in my element, I become super reserved and uncomfortable. The group of women I met, were truly wonderful and I felt very accepted. We are starting a study on the 40 Days of Love which I have heard wonderful things about. I feel like this is a great step for me and I very much look forward to rebuilding my relationship with God.

ALSO,  last week... talking about changes in my life! lol. I have signed up for Weight Watchers. Yes. My 2nd commitment of the year. (Lucky for me both commitments are between 6-14 weeks long so I'm not OVER committing myself) Again...super nervous! Backtracking to the end of last summer, I had been in and out of he doctor's office multiple times in the end to find out I have PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome) I'm still learning what it means for me and my life. I've been on all sorts of meds (one of which makes me super sick), I'm constantly never feeling normal, and my lifestyle several months ago made it impossible for me to lose weight because I was so stressed. I have been searching for months to find an avenue to release my stress. SO... fast forward to the new year... here we stand. I am still making a conscious effort to keep my stress load to a minimum.

Why I chose Weight Watchers. Well first.. convenience. The Weight Watchers program is through my work. All the meetings are at work during my lunch break. Secondly, flexibility. I can make 3 monthly payments which is wonderful. If I miss a meeting, I have the opportunity to go anywhere else. I also have access to etools online for free (I'm still learning about this) Lastly. the support. I eat 2 meals a day at work..breakfast and lunch. There are a lot of people my age in the group, one of which is a woman experiencing the health issues as I am. Having fellow co-workers support as well as my husband and family, I think will make this process much more efficient for myself. Prayers are requested, I really want this to be a success for me. (Obviously, due to weather...my FIRST meeting is cancelled! But, next week I plan to start lol)

Last of topics to discuss, is just a follow up letting you guys know that I am okay. I am still optimistic. I have had a few moments where I saw the darkness and felt myself being drawn in. But, I have enough strength in myself to go back to the light of God, realize he is carrying me through this process and helping me because I finally have the desire to help myself. It is true what they say, you can't help those who do not want to help themselves. God is helping me.