I'm not typically the kind of woman to do a New Year's resolution. Every time I've made the effort to start a diet, or work out...I fail. I promise myself to work on my finances better...then I fail. So this year... I've not publicly made any sort of 'resolution' but within myself I have made the choice to be me. I'm not sure why starting on January 1st makes this a big deal, maybe all the hype of 'starting fresh' or a 'clean slate' makes the new year worth giving life a 2nd....or 3rd chance at starting over.
There are characteristics about myself that I am going to working on...many of which all stem from one common concept of putting myself first. Saying No. Finding myself. Establishing an identify... It's my goal for the year and in order to do that I must really push myself everyday to be the 'new' person I want to truly be.I have no desire to re-evaluate my life in December of 2011...but I do want to track through this year how I am coping, the things I am learning, and how my life is maturing/improving with each passing day.
First things first... praying. I will never get anywhere in life if I don't get back to the root of it all and pray. Openly, I'm admitting my relationship with God has suffered...life, friends, school, work, drama... it's all come between my once solid foundation with God. So... praying. Reconnecting and rebuilding that's my plan for this year. Incorporating loving and positive relationships in my life to improve myself. Reading devotionals, witnessing to others, reading the Bible, and/or putting myself in a church atmosphere are important.
Secondly, without going in to my health and a huge long drawn out story... Getting my life in order means getting healthy and having a family... going to the doctor?? check. Taking my pills...check check. I need to make this a priority and get my system in order. I want more than anything to have a baby. I need to focus on getting my body figured out in order to achieve my goal.
Thirdly and lastly, I figure I will be working for the rest of my life, especially in our economic times. Luckily, in my work environment I'm blessed to have the benefit of flexibility and mounds of time off. I should take advantage of this opportunity. What am I saving up my time off for?? I'm not looking for a big vacation, but exploring the city I live in, or even better just closing my eyes and pointing to a map... That's what I want to do. Just go.... Try new things. Eat new foods. Learn to sew. Learn a new language! Learn to dance. Cook great foods... try new wines... ride a Ferris wheel...buy fantastic new shoes I'll wear once in my life..Go to a concert...go hiking... enjoy what God created.
This year has me optimistic and I want to stay that way. I realize there will be days of struggle...but I figure having a constant reminder of my blog will keep me focused and dedicated to myself. With that being said...wish me good luck :)
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