I have been abnormally quiet lately. I've been withdrawn from the crowd a bit, and definitely trying to keep to myself. I was kicked out of Weight Watchers and I have missed multiple days of work the month of April. Not like me you say? Well yes. I agree! So what's my deal? Well folks. April 4th I went to the doctor to do some blood work. After almost a year of having horrible hormonal issues, and meds and the in and out doctor's appointments....The results are in. I'm pregnant!
SHOCKED to say the least! Boy oh boy has life taken a turn for the crazy. The past few weeks alone have been a whirlwind. I immediately went to the doctor on April 7th for my first OB appointment. After routine urine and blood samples..I was pretty much handed a giant blue bag full of 'how to be pregnant' manuals/magazines/pamphlets, followed with samples of prenatal pills and a list of basic "To Do's". The following Monday April 11th I received a call from my doctor's office asking me to come in THAT day for an Ultrasound. My progesterone from my bloodwork was a little low so they wanted to make sure the baby was okay. Giving me barely 30 minutes notice, my husband rushed from work breaking the sound barrier to make it to our baby's first appointment. We arrived...and we were so blessed to see this tiny little thing inside me. Yes folks. It looks like a seahorse.... alien....thing. But I don't care. We were able to see a strong 144-120 beats per minute on the screen. They put me at approximately 7 weeks.
So here I am a few weeks later prepping for my doctor's appointment this upcoming Friday, April 29th. This appointment I should be able to hear a heartbeat and have another ultrasound to see how things are going. I'm nervous as all get out right now. I've been taking my progesterone pills daily. I am hoping for good news on Friday.
SO...for obvious reasons..... my blog has taken a bit of a turn. But it is called surviving this crazy thing called life for a reason.... I'm surviving. Now my plans are no longer to work my butt off to lose weight... but instead to work my butt off to be healthy not just for me but for this little tiny little prune-size thing inside me :) God has blessed me with a wonderful opportunity. One a lot of women do not have the chance to do anymore. There is not a day that goes by that I stop and take a moment to thank God for the wonderful miracle he has blessed my husband and I with.
Please join in celebrating me!!!!
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Spring Break or Just Take a Break...
No weigh in this week for me. We are on 'Spring Break' apparently; yet I am not finding myself at a beach with college friends. I think I can officially call myself old when I laugh at people who take a Spring Break. I work. Most of us work through Spring Break.
No major topic of discussion but without a weigh in this week I think a bit of reflection is in order since it has been a few months since this whole process of self discovery began. This morning when I logged on I realized it was going to be an "Eat Pray Love" kind of day. Immediately, I searched Elizabeth Gilbert for quotes for inspiration/motivation to get me through this day. It's dreary outside, as it has been for days. We live in the Midwest not Seattle!
My life is going smoothly. I'm on my meds that make me ever so sick. A doctor appointment scheduled on Monday to update my blood work. Prayers are requested/needed/appreciated as I wait patiently for what the results may be. Good news... that's all I want. My weight loss has been a rough path traveled; however, I am staying on board and exercising multiples times a week on the treadmill. The healthy mindset has done wonders for my motivation and even though I've slipped up a handful of times, I get back on and keep on a truckin'.
Life with my family is good. Husband/wife life is great. Friends are good as well. Socially, I feel like there are always areas I can improve on. I'm working hard to remember to be me for me and not anyone else. Just like my health, there have been a handful of moments where I have slipped up and failed getting sucked into the 'drama' but then I retreat and bring myself back to normalcy. My safe haven is my home, with my husband and our dog.
Spiritually, I'm doing better. I really enjoyed my bible study group. I felt like it was a chance to meet new people. I dedicated myself to the 6 weeks and so far I have enjoyed myself. Our next session starts in May so the month of April I'm taking it easy. Attending church more is important to me; however, we have managed to attend a few times through our 6 week study. It's always refreshing and it gives me optimism.
I think that about updates everyone on life. There is much more in the works for not only myself but our family as well as we make preparations for my dad's departure this summer to Afghanistan. The next few months will be the most important. As always, prayers/support are always appreciated and never go unnoticed.
No major topic of discussion but without a weigh in this week I think a bit of reflection is in order since it has been a few months since this whole process of self discovery began. This morning when I logged on I realized it was going to be an "Eat Pray Love" kind of day. Immediately, I searched Elizabeth Gilbert for quotes for inspiration/motivation to get me through this day. It's dreary outside, as it has been for days. We live in the Midwest not Seattle!
My life is going smoothly. I'm on my meds that make me ever so sick. A doctor appointment scheduled on Monday to update my blood work. Prayers are requested/needed/appreciated as I wait patiently for what the results may be. Good news... that's all I want. My weight loss has been a rough path traveled; however, I am staying on board and exercising multiples times a week on the treadmill. The healthy mindset has done wonders for my motivation and even though I've slipped up a handful of times, I get back on and keep on a truckin'.
Life with my family is good. Husband/wife life is great. Friends are good as well. Socially, I feel like there are always areas I can improve on. I'm working hard to remember to be me for me and not anyone else. Just like my health, there have been a handful of moments where I have slipped up and failed getting sucked into the 'drama' but then I retreat and bring myself back to normalcy. My safe haven is my home, with my husband and our dog.
Spiritually, I'm doing better. I really enjoyed my bible study group. I felt like it was a chance to meet new people. I dedicated myself to the 6 weeks and so far I have enjoyed myself. Our next session starts in May so the month of April I'm taking it easy. Attending church more is important to me; however, we have managed to attend a few times through our 6 week study. It's always refreshing and it gives me optimism.
I think that about updates everyone on life. There is much more in the works for not only myself but our family as well as we make preparations for my dad's departure this summer to Afghanistan. The next few months will be the most important. As always, prayers/support are always appreciated and never go unnoticed.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
A Balancing Act....
Hello all,
I have had another successful week! :) After my big treadmill purchase! I was able to shed another 2.0lbs! The greatest part is, I have finally hit my 5% body weight mark! I'm down officially 11.2lbs. I think it's a relief to finally be over the 10lb slump. This week I plan to hit it hard and keep working on the treadmill!
I haven't really updated on another further in my life other than the weight loss. I have completed a full small group study with the ladies at Rock Brook church. After spending 6 weeks with them I am starting to feel a bit more accepted. It's definitely hard to fall into a crowd when everyone has been so close for so long. I think the study was a great opener for me. We did the 40 weeks of Love. I learned so much from forgiveness to learning to fight with a spouse to learning about my needs and where I need growth in my life.
Since January, I feel I am still in a really good place. I am working hard to focus on myself. Last night I had dinner with my best friend and told her there are a lot times I feel so selfish. I think I announce what I eat on a daily basis to people. I spend so much time telling people about me, that I have forgotten to still consider the needs of others. It is hard to find the balance between the two.
As always, prayers and support is ALWAYS welcome and appreciated. It has been such a motivation to know people are watching me and helping me along the way.
Love you all~
I have had another successful week! :) After my big treadmill purchase! I was able to shed another 2.0lbs! The greatest part is, I have finally hit my 5% body weight mark! I'm down officially 11.2lbs. I think it's a relief to finally be over the 10lb slump. This week I plan to hit it hard and keep working on the treadmill!
I haven't really updated on another further in my life other than the weight loss. I have completed a full small group study with the ladies at Rock Brook church. After spending 6 weeks with them I am starting to feel a bit more accepted. It's definitely hard to fall into a crowd when everyone has been so close for so long. I think the study was a great opener for me. We did the 40 weeks of Love. I learned so much from forgiveness to learning to fight with a spouse to learning about my needs and where I need growth in my life.
Since January, I feel I am still in a really good place. I am working hard to focus on myself. Last night I had dinner with my best friend and told her there are a lot times I feel so selfish. I think I announce what I eat on a daily basis to people. I spend so much time telling people about me, that I have forgotten to still consider the needs of others. It is hard to find the balance between the two.
As always, prayers and support is ALWAYS welcome and appreciated. It has been such a motivation to know people are watching me and helping me along the way.
Love you all~
Thursday, March 17, 2011
I think I can I think I can I think I can....
Last week was awful. I fumbled. I failed...I failed miserably. Obviously, as you probably could tell, I was down about myself. I couldn't have another week like the last. I knew exercising was going to be a hard option as the weather has been chilly and rainy. So sticking firmly to my diet ESPECIALLY when eating out was a must for me. So I can proudly announce this week, I lost about a pound which isn't much, but at least I wasn't in the 'gain' category!
I also purchased a treadmill. I am SUPER excited about it. Last night, my husband and I were able to maneuver it to the basement. After some laughter, a few close calls of losing it down the stairs, and an abundance of sweat... we found a resting spot! Tonight will be first night of pain. I am excited to get the ball rolling!
Below are a few recent pics of me. I guess I should have started a before and after picture. Oh well! Can we tell a difference already??? Where did 9.2lbs come from??? :)
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Negative Nelly
I don't have much to say... other than, this is my first crappy weigh in week. I gained .2lbs. I realize I had a bit of an extreme weekend. It's my own fault. I know I didn't eat accordingly, it was just so depressing to see the numbers move in the wrong direction.
Apart of me is extremely motivated and wants to hit my 10lb mark as soon as possible, but the other side of me feels defeated. I realize it's only .2lbs. It's not a full pound. But it's a move in the wrong direction. I feel like a failure. I let myself down. I let everyone else down. The thing is though, even though I had a 'food' weekend, I really did not touch the fried foods. I guess it was still too much though.
Lesson learned for me... veggies... fruits.. and back to poultry. I will just have to crave red meat a little bit longer. :( Prayers and support are very much requested this week... I just want to see improvement next week. I don't think I can handle another week feeling like I do.
Apart of me is extremely motivated and wants to hit my 10lb mark as soon as possible, but the other side of me feels defeated. I realize it's only .2lbs. It's not a full pound. But it's a move in the wrong direction. I feel like a failure. I let myself down. I let everyone else down. The thing is though, even though I had a 'food' weekend, I really did not touch the fried foods. I guess it was still too much though.
Lesson learned for me... veggies... fruits.. and back to poultry. I will just have to crave red meat a little bit longer. :( Prayers and support are very much requested this week... I just want to see improvement next week. I don't think I can handle another week feeling like I do.
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
I am an addict....to food.
Hello everyone!
I just had my weekly weigh in! I am proud to announce I am down 2.0lbs now a total combined 8.6lbs! I don't feel it anywhere...but I guess it's coming from somewhere. If I can push myself, 1.4lbs I'll be at my 10 pound mark, if I can really push myself to lose 2.7lbs I'll be at 5% of my body weight by next week! :)
I now understand what an 'addict' goes through in a sense. Spending time with people enjoying themselves. Gorging themselves in food. Dips, chips, cokes, cake.... ugh. Multiple helpings of pasta, pizza, and cookies. The list drags on and on. It's hard. The lows that I've hit and I am only in week 4 really. Gosh the lows are hard. Overcoming the psychological mindset. Overcoming the urges. I have a new found respect for those who have overcome their addictions to drugs, alcohol, or even smoking.
This was one of the hardest weeks I have had yet! I struggled. I cried. I felt hopeless. I felt alone. This was hard stuff. BUT, I am so so so so so grateful for all the people in my life who have been a huge support to me. My aunt has sent me weekly cards in the mail that I have proudly displayed at my house. My favorite is NEVER EVER EVER Give up. The friendly messages on Facebook, the emails, the phone calls...and seriously I think I tell everyone every week how I have no faith in myself and my support system listens to me complain. Daily. I'm not kidding, DAILY, I explain everything I've eaten. I am sure these people have no clue in what format they have helped me. But... thank you. Thank you all so much.
Prayers and support are always welcome...think of me as I push myself through this next week :)
I just had my weekly weigh in! I am proud to announce I am down 2.0lbs now a total combined 8.6lbs! I don't feel it anywhere...but I guess it's coming from somewhere. If I can push myself, 1.4lbs I'll be at my 10 pound mark, if I can really push myself to lose 2.7lbs I'll be at 5% of my body weight by next week! :)
I now understand what an 'addict' goes through in a sense. Spending time with people enjoying themselves. Gorging themselves in food. Dips, chips, cokes, cake.... ugh. Multiple helpings of pasta, pizza, and cookies. The list drags on and on. It's hard. The lows that I've hit and I am only in week 4 really. Gosh the lows are hard. Overcoming the psychological mindset. Overcoming the urges. I have a new found respect for those who have overcome their addictions to drugs, alcohol, or even smoking.
This was one of the hardest weeks I have had yet! I struggled. I cried. I felt hopeless. I felt alone. This was hard stuff. BUT, I am so so so so so grateful for all the people in my life who have been a huge support to me. My aunt has sent me weekly cards in the mail that I have proudly displayed at my house. My favorite is NEVER EVER EVER Give up. The friendly messages on Facebook, the emails, the phone calls...and seriously I think I tell everyone every week how I have no faith in myself and my support system listens to me complain. Daily. I'm not kidding, DAILY, I explain everything I've eaten. I am sure these people have no clue in what format they have helped me. But... thank you. Thank you all so much.
Prayers and support are always welcome...think of me as I push myself through this next week :)
Friday, February 25, 2011
Struggling....
Hello All!
My error! I completely forgot to update everyone on my weight loss activities. My apologies! I think it's been two weeks or so since my first weigh in. My first week on weight watchers I lost 3.6lbs! Pretty fantastic right!!!! I was a nervous wreck. Actually, you can pretty much assume I am a nervous wreck EVERY week because last week was my 2nd weigh in and I lost another 3.0lbs! I think the nervousness comes from the fact that I want to make sure I am doing everything correctly. I want to know that I am eating enough of the right things.
It has seriously been the hardest three weeks of my life! lol With my husband's lack of healthy food choices, to a busy schedule it is hard to eat correctly. Even grocery shopping is a pain. Trying to figure out what to eat, what to make, or what to make my husband. It's a little stressful. Even though Weight Watchers allows for me to eat whatever I want, I have restricted myself from a lot of starches, desserts, and pastas. I know, I know it's not the way to go but until I feel like I can control myself, I do not feel like I should be around those products. The temptation is too much for me.
Anyways, I wanted to give you a quick update on where things stand. Struggling... very much so struggling. That's the only word to describe how I feel. Everything is really hard at this point. Say prayers...and keep your fingers crossed for me!
My error! I completely forgot to update everyone on my weight loss activities. My apologies! I think it's been two weeks or so since my first weigh in. My first week on weight watchers I lost 3.6lbs! Pretty fantastic right!!!! I was a nervous wreck. Actually, you can pretty much assume I am a nervous wreck EVERY week because last week was my 2nd weigh in and I lost another 3.0lbs! I think the nervousness comes from the fact that I want to make sure I am doing everything correctly. I want to know that I am eating enough of the right things.
It has seriously been the hardest three weeks of my life! lol With my husband's lack of healthy food choices, to a busy schedule it is hard to eat correctly. Even grocery shopping is a pain. Trying to figure out what to eat, what to make, or what to make my husband. It's a little stressful. Even though Weight Watchers allows for me to eat whatever I want, I have restricted myself from a lot of starches, desserts, and pastas. I know, I know it's not the way to go but until I feel like I can control myself, I do not feel like I should be around those products. The temptation is too much for me.
Anyways, I wanted to give you a quick update on where things stand. Struggling... very much so struggling. That's the only word to describe how I feel. Everything is really hard at this point. Say prayers...and keep your fingers crossed for me!
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